studying for GRE

the words listed underneath is very unfamiliar to me. i never used them or even i can't pronounce them correctly. i have to memeorize them as preparation of GRE...

• canto: division of a long poem.
• canvass: determine or seek opinions, votes, etc. (i knew this word... hahah...)
• capacious: spacious (what does it mean?)
• capacity: mental or physical ability; role; ability to accommodate (i knew it...)
• capillary: having a very fine bore, tube.
• capitulate: surrender.
• caprice: whim...
• capricious: unpredictable.
• caption: :) title; chapter heading, text under illustration.
• captious: faultfinding.
• carafe: glass water bottle, decanter, flask.
• carapace: shell covering the back (of a turtle, crab etc.)
• carat: unit of weight of precious stones; measure of fineness of gold.
• carcinogenic: causing cancer.
• cardinal: chief, basic, key, fundamental.
• cardiologist: doctor specializing in ailments of the heart.
• careen: lurch, zigzag, sway from side by side.
• caricature: distortion, burlesque.
• carillon: a set of bells capable of being played.
• carnage: destruction of life.
• carnal: fleshy.
• carnivorous: meat eating.
• carousal: drunken level; a merry drinking party
• carping: petty criticism; fault finding.
• carrion: rotting flesh of a dead body.
• cartographer: map-maker.
• cascade: small waterfall.
• caste: class, one of the hereditary classes in hindu society; social stratification.
• castigation: punishment; severe criticism.
• casualty: serious or fatal accident.
• cataclysm: deluge, upheaval, disaster.
• catalyst: agent which brings about a chemical change while it remains unaffected and unchanged.
• catapult: slingshot; a hurling machine.
• cataract: great waterfall.
• catastrophe: calamity; disaster.
• catcall: shout of disapproval.
• catechism: book of religious instruction; instruction by question and answer.
• categorical: without exceptions; unqualified; absolute.
• catharsis: purging or cleansing away any passage of the body (the process of releasing strong feelings, for example through plays or other artistic activities, as a way of providing relief from anger, suffering, etc).
  
• cathartic: purgative.
• catholic: universal; wide-ranging liberal.
• caucus: private meeting of members of a party to select officers or determine policy.
• caulk: to make watertight (by plugging seams).
• causal: implying a cause and effect relationship.
• caustic: burning; sarcastically biting.
• cauterize: burn with hot iron or caustic; to burn a wound, using a chemical or heat, in order to stop the loss of blood or to prevent infection.
• cavalcade: procession; parade.
• cavalier: casual and offhand; arrogant (not caring about something important or about the feelings of other people).
• cavil: make frivolous objections.
• cede: yield (title, territory) to; surrender formally.
• celerity: speed; rapidity.
• celestial: heavenly sidereal; stellar.
• celibate: unmarried; abstaining from sexual intercourse.
• censor: overseer of morals; person who eliminates inappropriate matter.
• censorious: critical.
• censure: blame; criticize. [the censor was the editor who censored the news presented by the censorious reporter and called him to censure severely]
• centaur: mythical figure; half man and half horse.
• centigrade: denoting a temperature scale.
• centrifugal: radiating; departing from the center.
• centrifuge: machine that separates substances by whirling them.
• centripetal: tending toward the center.
• centurion: roman army officer (commanded 100 soldiers).
• cerebral: pertaining to the brain or intellect.
• cerebration: thought.
• ceremonious: marked by formally.
• certitude: certainty.
  

lifearoundme.com

you are welcome to my brand new site lifearoundme.com. i've started writing here from today. first i wanted to move all the post from here to my new site. but now i think i'll continue the both site. so keep coming and keep supporting me. thank you.

6 years, 7 months, 7 days!

the morning started with the sound of raindrop... like the sky was crying, its still crying all through the day and i could hear the echo inside me. today i've finished all the exams of my bfa course. from tomorrow i don't need to rise early in the morning against my will to catch an exam or a lecture... or feel angry to my mentors. it was such a long time... 6 years, 7 months, 7 days! may be i had expected this day (today) for hundred times. but now when it came to me i feel i am loosing something... it made me too lighter that i even couldn't realize my existence...

to my ancestors

the house you can see on the picture is a pride for our family. it called 'kachari ghor' (something like a court house for a small rural area or community to maintain the laws and regulations). as far i know my grand-grand-grandfather first built it and it has been reconstructed several times. it surprised me when i think about my ancestors. they were not so called educated person, but they were more than that. they had a very hard life but they kept a vast wealth for their next generation.

now days when i think about me or my family, i find too many differences. we are rushing with ourselves... fighting only for existence. we feel good with our history but really don't know what our next generation is going to think about us. i don't find anything good with it. we are dividing into individuals... that the worst part i think. i don't know... but may be as human being life deserves something more...

bangla cinema

on the way to my office i see some cinema posters everyday... just few yards behind the 'rajmoni' cinema hall. the posters are too big and eye catchy that everyone who passes the way must has to watch these at least for a glance.



now days bangla cinema is one of the most criticized matter for its standard, vulgarity, irrationality. but its still a profitable product for this huge populated country...

restless life

i saw people around me... that amaze me most. life is too busy here for last 15 days. i think that particular 15 days are the busiest days of the year. people are hurrying... like a race. shopping and shopping... taking and giving tips and bonuses. money and money all around… shoppers are hiking higher prices… who cares? i don’t understand how people could afford so many things. never ending traffic jam on the road… who cares? people moving like waves… one goes, another comes. even the beggars are in hurry too…

today on the way back to my home, i saw an ambulance carrying a dead body. they were also in hurry… that made me feel really sorry. i am thinking about the ‘dead person’. i don’t know the person but its true that he/she was also a part of this restless life just few hours ago… may be he/she was a powerful person… may be he/she had a glorious life, but now who cares? may be that’s the amazing part of life. you could count the number of living person who are breathing on the earth right at this moment… but there is no way to count the amount of dead persons… they are just memories and this universe contains memories much much more than current stories. may be as together i am also a part of this restless life but as very individual, i only destine just like few memories…

a 'kiddy' conversation

the place where i live is one of the most crowded area of the city. too many people live here and in every single second something is happening here. first few days it seemed disturbing but now i started like it. today i was walking through a narrow path. three kids were walking before me and were talking loudly about something. it caught my attention and i started walking slowly... behind them...

: if you don't believe you can ask mithu that we really bought a computer... (1st kid)
: who said? you know, how much a computer costs? (2nd kid)
: no no no... he is right. i saw the packets of the computer in abu's house (3rd kid)
: ohhh... which brand? (2nd)
: samsung... black (1st)
: whites are faster than the blacks (2nd)
: how much it was? (2nd)
: 25000 taka (1st)
: i saw a big empty table at your home... why didn't you keep the computer there? (3rd)
: my father has to calculate money... thats why he keeps it at our shop... do you like to go there to see the computer? (1st)

there were a huge crowd then and some people were quarreling there. i lost the kids...

after that i had a strange feelings... they were not from so well of family. computer is a really amazing thing to them. i feel pity for them... again i was happy. the way they are thinking now is a very good sign for our nation.

goodbye d.o.h.s

entrance gate of new d.o.h.s, mohakhali, dhaka

on 15 August 2005, i had entered this gate for the first time to face an interview at ebizzsol. before that day i seldom watch this gate just through the window of bus or taxi. i started passing that gate regularly from 1 september 2005, the day i’ve joined to ebizzsol. last 25 months, for every six days of the week, i used to enter or depart through this gate; except office holidays, 16 june 2006 (my grandpa died this day), 10-15 may 2007 (we went to see the keokradong), and approximately 10 other days (i didn’t able to come office for sickness, been out of the city etc). all these days i’ve come to d.o.h.s just to attend office… nothing else. i don’t either have a relative’s house in this area or a friend’s office. our office shifting will be over by next sunday and after that day i’ll have no reason left to come to this area again. i am really feeling bit pain in my heart for that.

so may be i am going to see this gate just through a running bus or taxi’s window again…

i think you certainly have an own story.

positive mind

if someone ask me 'how are you?' its very easy to answer 'i am fine' or 'very well' or 'just fine' or something that shows a positive approach. its not like that i always answer that way... but if there is no problem with that, i just do it. i think if i am having a boring job or are in a hurry or having some pressure or in a mental stress and then someone ask me 'how are you' and i answer 'not well', 'very bad', 'no...' etc; that doesn't help me to reduce the pain. moreover there is a provability of increasing my pain.



i think 'how are you' actually not a question... its like a greet and and the way we response it, shows the personality. you'll find some people who always pretend to be unwell. you'll see them laughing, talking... but ask them 'how are you'... they'll rise their nose, make their face sorrowful, stare their eyes to an unseen painful memories and then say 'i am not enough well, that made my life hell... blah... blah... blah...'. i think when we have this question before us... we should take some time, think: is there any problem with me right now? if not, just say with a smile that you are well. try it, i promise it'll certainly make you feel better... even if its not for a long time but at least for several moments.

grey, grey sky...

i've got the quoted poem somewhere in internet and found the picture in my mobile gallery... i had taken those pictures in a gloomy grey day...

Someday I will ride the great bird
Into the sky, into the grey
And will take a bright secret of mine
Into the grey, grey sky.

And the light will come, piercing my eyes
Out of the sky, out of the grey
Come blinding and searing these eyes
Out of the grey, grey sky...
Grey, Grey Sky by Grace Hutton

two birthday cards

i was looking my old files last night and i got few birthday cards those i had designed for my friends. i have a good habit of remembering birthdays and normally i don't forget to greet. these two cards were two biggest surprise... they couldn't even thought about it...

60% vs 20%

i’ve added a poll with my last post and requested everyone to participate. the questionnaire was like this

what will be your first attempt in new office?

1. i'll start searching a new house
2. if there any good restaurant around this place...
3. as i am here...
4. i'll tell the girl about my feelings
5. no plan actually... like shamim vai

the poll allowed multiple choices. 60% voter choose the last quote ‘no plan actually… like shamim vai’. the nearest contestants were jointly the 2nd and 4th quotes which got 20% of vote. two other got 13% of vote.

i don’t want to make any comment about the result. because shamim vai already has threatened me… and i am really bit frightened…

thanks everyone for participating the poll!

old is gold, new could be platinum!

eBizzSol, house # 171, road # 23, 3^rd floor, mohakhali new DOHS, dhaka

we were here in this building for almost three years and we are going to leave this building in any good day of this month. this place was nice… we had some big neighborhoods like 'bat' (british american tobacco), 'bis' (bangladesh international school) etc. thats why this place was known as an elegant area and this destination was a preferable destination for the taxi drivers. the rickshaw fare was fixed... roads were clean and green, people were nice. there were three verandah on our office floor which were a quick refreshing and private talking (over phone) zone for all of us... still don't have any idea about the communication system of new office or about the neighborhoods. but hope it'll be nice too... the truth is we are mourning for our old location because old is gold and our hearts are drumming because new could be platinum!

a blank weekend

here the weekend is friday... but for my office sunday is the weekend. so i have little problem with adjusting. i get my classes off in friday but i have to attend office, and in sunday i get my office off but i have to attend the classes... and the worst thing is all of my friends get a full weekend in friday and in sunday when my classes are over, i become all alone. i just have to stay at home. so i watch movies on sunday... its movie day for me.



yesterday i saw two movies... 'teen kanya' and 'lion of the desert'... two marvelous movies. first i saw the teen kanya (three daughters)... it contains three different short stories of rabindranath tagore. when i was watching 'the postmaster' i just astonished with the talent of satyajit roy. its a nice famous story... but the movie is simpler than the simple story.

and after watching the 'lion of the desert' i thought myself stupid... why i didn't watch it before? i've added it to my most favorite list... and this weekend doesn't seem blank to me anymore...

'love around me'

people say many things about love; i say its the only hope to live on the earth. in my 26 years experience, i saw its very easy to fall in love but thousand time harder to express the love. i don't have such experience yet. i never needed to say my parents or my family how much i love them. i've fallen in love for several times... but i always kept it in myself and never tried to express it...



i started like a girl few month ago. she is in my same department but i didn't know her name or never talked to her. few days ago i realized that i really like her. so i decided to tell her about my feelings. i started thinking... what should i say? i thought for several days and then i started memorizing two sentences- 'hi, i like you. can i have your phone number so that we can know each other better?' i own self recited it thousand times and then one day the chance came. i saw the girl few yard far from me and suddenly i started sweating... i saw everything became blurry around me... i didn't hear any sound... its an unforgettable experience i've ever felt... so i understood it shouldn't be my business any more. its much more comfortable to be an one sided lover...

what do you think?

flower :: friend

one of my friend has sent some pictures of flower few days ago.
i even don't know the name of the flowers, but who cares...



thank you friend :)

the world beyond my reach...

if an angel come to me and ask me to make a wish, i'll say i want to see every single wonder of the world!

this is one of my very favorite quote that i've added to my travel blog site. i always want to see the world out of my normal reach. i dream lot about that... like, sometime i think the sky out of my place doesn't look the same that i see everyday.



today i was reading some articles in different blogs of blogspot. i like most one of these... a bangladeshi girl write it from norway... about her first few miserable days there. i just trying to imagine myself there in the same situation. actually its beyond my imagination... may be things are always not so painful that it seems or not so joyful that it pretends...

i witness

its not a nice story at all that i am going to tell. everything was normal till yesterday evening. i came to know the incident last night when i got back to home. there was a clash between students and police in my university and several students has been injured in the incident [full story].



it was a real sad news for me. i have attended the exam yesterday and there was no sign of any disturbance. but today it seems like a battle field. rally all around, fire on street, police firing tear gas... everyone seems like crazy. i am not very much clear why all these are happening. students called an indefinite strike, the university administration stopped all the exams. last few days i was really busy with my exams and suddenly today i don't have anything to do.



students damaged several vehicles on the street and police fired hundreds of tear shells on them. i don't know what is going to happen tomorrow.



before january 20, 2007 here political clashes were regular story for us. but after that, for last several months, at least in our university we have a great time- no political clashes, no session jams; just regular classes and regular exams... that made almost all general students feeling good. but again we are in an uncertainty...

new office

me and my other colleagues just came after visit our new office in mogbazar. its nice, it have a nice view... we could see the dhaka city from an upper view now. the first impression is wonderful... its one of the tallest building around the area and we are in one of the top floor. a rail road besides the building, so we often have to hear the heavy sound of rail running.



have a look on the image bellow. its a view from the front window of the office. i know, you might feel jealous :) but there is a little problem. its rainy season now, thats why the water is so clear. i shouldn't guess how it'll get the look in dry season. but now its really wonderful... a clear blue sky... a reflection... and a cool breeze...



we are going to start our work in new office from any good day of september. come if you get some time and have a cup of tea with us...

rainy day

it was raining earlier in the morning. now the sun is shining overhead. i was in charukola when it was raining. it was just wonderful! i've recorded the sound of rain drops and took some pictures by my nokia 7610.



i don't know if there any site where i can upload the sound clip that i've recorded by my mobile phone. anyway rain is always a pleasant thing to me though it often causes flood here.

a corrected comment

my wise friend who had sent a pictorial comment yesterday resent the image today mentioning that he made a spelling mistake. i think it should be shown how wise he is...

a comment

i just got a very valuable pictorial comment from one of my very wise friend...



...no comments for this comment...

the exam

we are having the final exam of our graduation course. it was long expected... but now we could realize we are going to miss something. the exam will be over within 8 september. i don't know what i am going to do then... i have an offer to start a full time job in my current office, but when i think about working all day long under a concrete roof... my breath stuck under my chest. it really hard to imagine...


in our graphic design department we are having a 48 hours long (12 days) exam- 'publicity campaigning and packet design'. its so boring. we have to paint a 15" x 20" poster, a 7" x 7" sticker and a packet for 12 pencils. the way of working is so conventional... no use of computers or any other digital media. its good that we are learning but i think its not a proper way of learning.

how is the 'life around me'

most of the time it seems really fantastic... and myself lucky. sometime its boring and very few time 'want to leave it somehow'. for last few years i've spent most of the hours of my life with my friends and colleagues. it was nice :)



i am not a person with a big ambition. i want to get those things which are around me and reachable with less anxieties. to me its good policy to be happy. i believe in God and i think its the certain source for all desires that i keep.